when I think about it, I really have no one to turn to when I need them the most.

it wasn’t suppose to end this way though.

you were so head over heels for me back then. what happened. i miss that the most about you.

do you know who i miss right now. yeah, my ex—sofie. no, it’s not like that. nothing like that. it’s just i miss talking to her about anything. it was so easy to talk to her when i have problems or when i’m feeling depressed. and she would proceed to tell me the most obvious reasons to get over it. if we were mad at one another, we’ll always fix it asap and not let it get in the way. because that’s how much we value our companionship for one another. but like everything, things changed and we just grew apart. the last time i talked to her was probably a month or two ago when she’s in the philippines. she’s always over there visiting her family. i just miss her, especially at times like these that i can use her comfort. hah.

i seriously had it with your shit, dude. being irresponsible, being immature, and being unreasonable. what’s your problem? seriously, tell me what the fuck is your problem. i admit to my mistakes, i treated you better than all the guys you had ever been with plus more, and i pretty damn sure i cared for you more than they ever did. but the things i get in return aren’t even half the things i give to you. what the fuck is with you, dude. do you even value us anymore, or is it getting old and boring and it’s time to move on. because if you’re ready for that stage, then by all means tell me and get it over with. i’m tired of arguing and it’s at the point where i just want to stop talking and sleep it off. i just don’t care for it anymore.

i usually get hungry around this time; 3am-ish. refrigerator, why do you have nothing to eat. i don’t want to put in effort to make food atm.